miss nina miranda

oh how i miss you nina miranda- it is unbelievable that i let you slip away. i drove you away, pushed you away. ignored you- there is not a day that goes by that i do not think of you. my emotions are not angry with you. i think had we stayed married that it would have been very difficult to do. only if i know what i know today could there have been a great marriage. i did not know what i had with you, it was not special to me and i wanted something better. it has taken the path i was forced onto to understand what God had given me.. it is from my own lack of emotion that dried up the love that we had- and from its potential that it all had. i did not seek out wisdom in our marriage and my spiritual eyes were not looking at what was deep and lasting. from hardship and torture (being without knowing you) do my spiritual eyes see what i had lost. i have hope for us- i know that this life is only temporal at best and someday all will be erased that injustice of divorce. recovery will be given and tears of joy will flow. it is at that time that i will be restored back to you in full understanding. i only hope that in this life we can have a conversation of understanding, that i may be able to direct you, and you direct me to our potential fullness.